Before everything went downhill, 让自己忙碌证明还活着Nexcare Ambassador @ Teenage Mag's Valentine's Day EventModern Beauty salon PromoterSo, Nexcare was from 13th-16th and I worked for Modern Beauty from 17th to 21st. Biggest mistake of my life to agree to work, I hated the sales job so much. Promoting facials? Selling people things they don't need? Lying to people? I don't know, not my thing. Wanted to quit within the first two hours, because it was agonizing and time passed so slowly and the job sucked ttm, Managed to get a mid-week break tho. My agent lied to me, by saying she applied for my staff pass so I can't back out. what a bitch. There was no such pass. Also, she made the job scope sound very vague and so I didn't know it was to sell facials urgh. Not gonna work for her anymore once all my current assignments are done. On the mid-week break, I went for my Clinique training to learn about the new EBEL. It's a superb product which activates your skin's natural ability to regenerate moisture! Available in two variants for dry and oily skins respectively, so go down to any Clinique counter to try! (Ps, with every purchase, there will be a FREE gift set worth $30!)
"Burning in water, drowning in flames" I feel like a zombie on life support, a skeleton with a beating heart, and eyes that cry but there's nothing left of me. I feel horrible. I messed up my life again. Do I know how to even live my life? No, I clearly don't. They always say, "Once bitten, twice shy" and if you make the same "mistake" over and over, it's no longer a mistake, it's a choice. A fucking stupid choice. People tell me, you're just young, you don't know how to deal with such situations well enough yet, but now you learn and you know. Really? I had to get hurt this way to learn? Now I see human touch and I'm afraid. And I promised myself that I won't hug guys anymore. And if anyone doesn't respect that, then fuck off. Woke up on Friday feeling suicidal; and I still had to work. Was trying so hard not to cry and stuff Friday night, I only got home at 3am. Because I needed to be a friend to someone, despite myself crumbling into bits. I know I do also have people who care for me, but what I need now, is just to be left alone. I. Need. To. Be. Locked. In. Clinique AngelStarted work for Clinique on the 22nd, despite having little sleep the night before. Was hoping that Clinique work would be better but meh. It really hurt to be walking around in 4 inch heels to give out flyers but I met up with my god bro and pampered myself with Work has been screwing up my lunch times thou, ate lunch at 4ish and immediately left house for dinner at 5.30 Dinner was fish head steamboat at Whampoa! (Have to wait for at least 1 hour) Thought it was okayy only la, idk maybe cause I didn't have the mood to eat. For dinner, we went to Nihon Mura; because well we had vouchers for 19 free plates When we got home, found out that my mum's Newcastle convocation and my SAT test are like on the 2nd of May and 3rd of May respectively. We were supposed to all go holiday together then my mum got upset that I didn't rmbr the date and I got upset with myself cause I failed as a daughter. I fail at being myself and at life in general right? "En toute chose il faut considérer la fin."
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Amanda YongLifestyle blogger from SG. Archives
January 2018
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